Letting Go

Life has been quite full for me these past few weeks, and this will continue to be so throughout 2012. This means that I am not able to write as much as I used to, sharing my own thoughts and observations with you. Instead I have been posting those gems I find from others and hope you are enjoying them. And when I can carve out the time, and have the presence of mind, I will indeed pull up a chair and scribble my musings with you as before.

Two weeks ago we met with the real estate agents we will be working with, as we put our home on the market. We will be moving from one coast to the other - East to West, Connecticut to Oregon. About as far a move as you can do and still be in the continental U.S. Even as I write these words, I get a bit misty eyed. This is a move I have held within my heart for well over two years now, and it is hard to believe it is actually beginning to unfold.

The real estate peeps recommended we list the house in early March, and after they left, the reality of this home no longer being mine really hit me. I have lived here since 1994. So very much has happened in that span of time. Hard to wrap my mind around all that, so mostly I don't even try. This home is infused with my energy. It is, in a sense, an extension of my body. Every square inch is reflective of who I am. [Well, maybe not every inch . . . there are a few nooks and crannies filled with dust bunnies that I'm not about to take ownership of :)] The very walls feel as though they are part of me. I guess I have a bit of turtle energy in me that this is so.

I've needed this house as my shelter. Being highly sensitive, I have always needed a place to retreat. While I love my time out and about, being around others, I spend much more time in my home than most people do, especially since the chronic illness I deal with, coupled with awakening symptoms, have kept me home-bound on many a day. And so this home has come to feel like my outer shell . . . again there is the turtle energy.

So this year of transition will be one in which I will be asked to let go, let go, and Let Go, over and over. Just as we all have been asked to do so in recent years. We are all letting go of all that no longer serves us, and moving on. Some linger, reluctant to release the comfort of what is familiar. They may be utterly miserable in their current circumstances, but stay on rather than step into the unknown.

You can do that, for a time at least. The energy of 2012 on forward will make this option less and less viable. It will propel you forward whether you agree or not. So you can choose to release your grip, accept that change is difficult and scary at times, but a necessary part of life here on earth. Or you can hold on tight, only to have your fingers pried lose and you get dragged kicking and screaming out the door.

I know I have to move. It is time for me. I have been told I am brave to do this, and believe me, it is not easy. But I don't see it as bravery at all. It is instead about accepting the natural flow of life. And trusting. Trusting first and foremost in myself, and my ability to navigate my way through this journey. And also trusting of the Universe to support me in doing so. I listen and watch for the messages, the signs, that guide me. I don't resist. I allow.

Where in your life, in your heart perhaps, are you resisting the natural flow? Where have you built a dam to block the river from moving forward? Take a look. And ask your self honestly: is this truly how I wish to live my life? Imagine yourself at the end of your life, in future years, and wonder what regrets you may have. What can you do now, that will shorten that list of regrets? This is what you came here to do: you came here to release and allow. Maybe it does take courage to do this. But as a card carrying whimp, I will tell you that if I can do it, you can as well.