Post Winter Solstice: The Light Returns

We have just past the Winter Solstice (Summer Solstice for those of you in the southern hemisphere), though the impact lingers for three days after this stillpoint. Most likely you experienced something significant during this exceptionally powerful solstice. I was listening to Jim Self and Geoffrey Hoppe interviewed on The Awakening Zone yesterday. Jim communicates with the Archangels, and he shared that he became aware at the moment of the Solstice that Christ Consciousness had arrived on Earth. No wonder I awoke from a deep sleep at that exact time and felt shaken to the core by the incoming energy.

So why don't we all feel on top of the world, riding high on this influx of the highest level of consciousness in the cosmos? Well, as you probably know, light pushes out the dark and attempts to transmute it. If we allow this to happen, we are then able to embrace the light (higher consciousness) more fully. Our ego doesn't typically like this though, as ego wants to remain in control. Ego is low consciousness and does not want to be displaced or transmuted.

The only way around this death grip that ego has on us is to become consciously aware of it, in all of its guises. Ego is not just about being overly proud or arrogant. Sometimes it is just the opposite - it causes us to think and act small, meek, and passive. We know ego is running the show when we are frequently in judgmental mode (of ourselves or others). Instead of finding ways to create a healthier way of being in the world, we instead spend much time ruminating over the bad behavior of others, or kicking ourselves for our own shortcomings. We tell our "story" over and over about how badly someone is behaving towards us. It's not a matter of ignoring the bad behavior, or turning the other cheek, but if we look within we may discover the reasons why we are being treated shabbily, and we then take action, shifting our thinking, and then our behavior.

Ego also shows up frequently in our attempts to be loved, to be needed, to be viewed as kind, helpful, compassionate, and generous. There is nothing wrong and everything right with these qualities, in and of themselves.  But ask yourself, honestly, "why am I choosing to be this way? Is there balance in this behavior, or am I doing it out of neediness?" If you are compulsively giving and giving and giving, and feeling drained, stressed, on the verge of overwhelm, then maybe ego is again doing its dance.

Ego isn't the only reason we may not be having an easy time of it. The energies are dramatic, intense, and creating much chaos and disruption in our lives and in the world around us. We could be the most well balanced egoless person in the world and still feel like crap when the energies heat up. Both Jim and Geoff emphasized that for the next year we may often find ourselves not feeling great emotionally or physically, and often it has nothing to do with us - it is what is happening all around us, on the planet as a whole. 

And finally, you may not be feeling the light because you are working hard to grow, to evolve, to raise your consciousness, and this is often painful. This process involves much letting go, and therefore we may feel sorrow and grief. This past month in particular has been one filled with sorrow and grief for many (and there have been many deaths in recent months as well).  If you are going through the motions of the holiday season, and only sensing joy and peace occasionally, know that it will get better. In fact, it will get vastly better. Right now though, it's often a choppy ride to say the least. No smooth glide in a winter's sleigh, but more like riding the rough seas in a small row boat.

Keep your eyes on the shore and visualize what you will find there. Hard as it may be to believe right now, we will land there in the not too distant future. Some of you are already there, and setting up camp for the rest of us. Others of us are there and back out at sea, back and forth, sometimes in the same day. Weirdly, I often find myself in both places at once. Because even on days when I am struggling, there is the increasing awareness of the rapid unfolding of the Shift. Like a child at Christmas, I am filled with hope, excitement and anticipation. I hope you are too.